Baby Blues

This weekend we were scheduled to do IUI (Intrauterine Insemination). My follicle was a 22 on Friday so they gave me a shot and said we were ready. When we got there on Saturday she told us she wanted to talk to us before we start the procedure. She left the room and I looked at Bill and said "something is wrong." And sure enough there was something wrong. Bill's sperm count had lowered drastically.......40 million to 3.2 million. They are not sure why, but they had to cancel doing the IUI.  The only thing we can think of is that he had his wisdom tooth removed a week and a half before and had been put under anesthesia and on all sorts of pain meds and antibiotics. We go next week to speak with the doctor and find out what could be causing this.

I have never felt such heartache like I did that day. It was literally like someone took my heart out of my chest and stomped on it and then put it back in. I have been trying to stay positive through all of this, but every time things start to look up something happens to bring it back down. I honestly don't know how people that have been going through this type of thing for many years do it. I don't know if I have the emotional strength to do it for several years. I know in the long run it will all be worth it. If we can't have our own baby we will adopt. We are just ready to be parents!!