IUI--Round 1

I've been asked if our first round of IUI worked and unfortunately it did not. It was devastating and heartbreaking to say the least. We are doing one more round of IUI and then moving on to IVF if it doesn't work. I go this Friday for my first of  many sonograms. This round we did 5mg of Femara instead of 2.5mg hoping to get better results from my follicles.

I realized I've never really talked about what is causing our infertility. I was diagnosed with PCOS (polycystic ovarian syndrome) last summer. It was definitely frustrating wondering why we weren't getting pregnant and then finally finding out why. After I was finally diagnosed and we knew what the problem was I figured we wouldn't have a problem getting pregnant after that. But here we are months down the road and still no sign of a baby. I feel like a failure that I can't give my husband a family. I feel like I've let him down.

My emotions have changed from the start of this all. I used to feel "oh it will happen when it is supposed to" and now I'm angry and wonder why 16 year old girls are getting knocked up but I can't and I actually WANT a baby. It just isn't fair. I am nervous and scared about my appointment on Friday. I have a feeling my follicles have not grown much and have not responded to the added dosage of the medicine.

Tomorrow night on KMBC 9 news they are talking about infertility. In this short clip they talk with Jenny Matthews of Mix 93.3 and Dr. Milroy who performed our first IUI. I'm excited to watch and see what new breakthroughs there are. http://www.kmbc.com/video/26963824/detail.html

If you have kids give them extra love today. I can't begin to tell you what I would give to be able to have a baby of my own.